Timing Is Everything....

I laid in bed that night and thought about the day and how my life is like a roller coaster ride, the ups and downs and crazy turns along the way, It'll throw you off if you don't hold on tight, you can't really smile until you've shed some tears, I could die today or I might live on years,I love this crazy, tragic, sometimes almost magic, awful, beautiful life.

Hey Everybody! Don't you love that quote? I thought you would! I'm sorry I've been uncommitted to my blog! School is, crazy, and my social life is....full of drama! My boyfriend and I fight so much, it's starting to be weird when we DON'T fight. At this exact moment I am watching season one of the Hills (yay!) It is my obsession, if you have not seen it you MUST go out and rent/buy it! Lauren Conrad is my IDOL! Her and Taylor Swift :) plus my mom! great group of girls right there!! hehe so how have you been? I've been alright.

There have been a few moments with the boyfriend where i've almost lost it and broken it off right there and then. He makes things into bigger deals then they need to be and soemtimes acts like the girl in our relationship and it drives me up the wall! I wish I had the Confidence of LC. She is the most amazing person I've ever seen on reality TV. I know what your thinking. Did she jsut say reality tv?! Well folks, That I did! Shes AMAZING. you have to see her for yourself to completely understand where I'm coming from.

Did you ever feel like your entire life was a big joke. Like it's not actually you living it, your just playing along until your actual life comes along. Thats what I feel. I feel like high school is a big play with a bunch of characters. Like all those years in elementary and junior high were like an audition to see who you'll play in high school. They cast a jerk as your boyfriend to get good ratings, and they make your friends have so much drama in their lives to get people hooked and want to watch over and over again. It's pretty sad, but, thats how it is.

I want to live in LA. I want to be able to go put my feet in the california coast water and feel at ease. I want to feel the sun on my skin and the wind in my hair, sand between my toes. I'd never look back. It'd be my haven. My place to be me and become who I was always ment to be. There will be nothing stopping me and someday I WILL live there...

the only thing is...timing is everything.....

I'll write you soon loverss!

xoxo

Janna.